I’m sick & exhausted. Bring me soup & Tylenol.
That is all.
This has four notes and none of you and brought me soup or the drugs
Let’s play “Never Have I Ever”. Cross out all of the things that you have done. You might just see that there are people just like you out there.
Never have I ever had a boyfriend/girlfriend.
- Never have I ever kissed a girl.
Never have I ever kissed a boy. Never have I ever received/given a blowjob, hand job, eating out. Never have I ever had sex. Never have I ever fallen in love. Never have I ever cheated on someone. Never have I ever been cheated on. Never have I ever sexted.
- Never have I ever gotten into a fight.
- Never have I ever done something illegal.
Never have I ever gotten wasted. Never have I ever used an illegal drug.
- Never have I ever snuck out.
Never have I ever stolen something. Never have I ever vandalized something. Never have I ever lost a family member due to death. Never have I ever been in a life or death situation.
- Never have I ever been arrested.
- Never have I ever been fired from a job.
- Never have I ever wanted to kill someone because in the moment I hated them that much.
- Never have I ever been kept up at night due to guilt.
Never have I ever laughed so hard I cried. Never have I ever been abused physically. Never have I ever cried myself to sleep. Never have I ever wished that I was someone else. Never have I ever wanted to kill myself. Never have I ever tried to kill myself. Never have I ever felt like an outcast. Never have I ever wanted to do something just so I would fit in.
Never have I ever ruined my friendship with someone. Never have I ever had a friend leave me for other people. Never have I ever been kicked out of a friend group. Never have I ever wished that I had different friends. Never have I ever wanted to fuck one of my friends. Never have I ever wished that I could be more than friends with someone. Never have I ever wished I was friends with the popular people. Never have I ever been friendless.
Never have I ever failed a test. Never have I ever cut class.
- Never have I ever had to eat alone.
- Never have I ever failed a course.
- Never have I ever been suspended.
Never have I ever received detention. Never have I ever passed notes/texted in class. Never have I ever made out with someone in school.
- Never have I ever dropped out of school.
1. deny any possibility that this is the case
2. break down when you realize that the end is unavoidable
3. lash out at those around you
4. react poorly to anyone else complaining about their workload
5. avoid reality with food
6. avoid reality with drinking
7. break down again
8. half-heartedly tell yourself you can do this
9. accidentally look at a calendar
10. break down again
11. continue to react poorly to underclassmen talking about how much work they have to do
12. rely on science to motivate you
13. work like an idiot for unnourished hours on end
14. reread your work
15. oh well
I was doing so well. I was depression-free for months, almost a year. I should have know it would strike again. I’m trying so hard to motivate myself and to just keep going, but I can’t. Now, I can’t help ut think I’ll never make it through grad school, not if I can’t make it through these two easy assignments. What is wrong with me?
this is so powerful i just cant even explain it
Just as CPR has been promoted to save lives, it is vital that the general public knows how to assess and prevent suicide. Here are the steps:
1. Notice if the person appears disheveled or the gaze is downward or the voice tone is flat or says things like, “Life’s not worth living,” or “I hate my life,” etc.
2. Ask: “How would you rate your mood right now on a scale of zero to ten with zero meaning life’s not worth living and ten meaning life is great?”
3. If the person rates the mood as 5 or under, ask: “Have you had any thoughts of suicide or of harming yourself?” *
4. If the person indicate yes, go to the next step. If the person says, “I don’t know,” hear this as a “yes” to the question in #3.
5. Ask: “Have you thought about how you might end your life?” If the person says yes, the risk is increased.
6. Ask: “What have you thought about as how you might do it?” If the means is ineffective or non-lethal, such as cutting wrists, risk is lower. If the means is lethal such as using a gun or jumping from a bridge, etc., risk is higher.
7. Regardless of the means, ask: “Can we agree together that if you have thoughts of killing yourself, you will speak to me personally (not my voice mail) before carrying out a plan to harm yourself?”
8. If the person says “no” or “I don’t know,” to the question in #7, say: “What I am hearing is that you are in a lot of pain right now and thinking of ending your life, so I am wanting you to go to the emergency room right now and get some help to feel better right away. Will you go? I will make sure you get there safely. Is there a family member or someone I can call to go with you?” Or tell the person you will go with them yourself.
9. Arrange for the person to be accompanied to the emergency room, and call ahead to tell emergency staff you are coming.
10. If the person refuses, then ask the person to wait there with someone while you call police in another room to report that the person has threatened suicide with lethal means. Ask the police to come and accompany the person to the emergency room.